I’m expecting something to happen, today. Aside from that nonsense expectation, a decision is about to make, depends on God’s decision. I’m on my one last try, one last failure and I’ll be whoever I have to become.
My distractions are here with me. I’m prepared. I didn’t expect a day without tragedy. Evils are waiting but they don’t know that I’m on my way down, no need to pull me down. God is watching over, watching me to fail and learn. When I’m failed, I don’t blame him but myself and I let go of my hand from him because I can’t let him be part of my failures and mistakes. He is not God of Failure, he never fails. But when I’m done something good or achieved something or finished something, can’t help to thank him. Without his permission, nothing will happen.
I’m a failure. Sometimes I’m up, sometimes I’m down. I’ve never been in the middle of everything. I’m never been a fighter. A good fighter who will never quit, no matter hom many failures and mistakes and errors. Anyone who stands confidently with the Lord Jesus Christ, will never fall. How I wished I stood confidently for him. When all I know, he is the one who’s been and will always be with me. Acceptance, love, comfort, faithfulness, respect and wisdom are all in him, not in any one’s else.
Today, I feel both positive and negative feelings it drives me crazy.
What I’m not supposed to drink, coffee.
Nothing. I have no appetite.
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To A Thousand Years Cover,
one of my saved videos of preaching. This teaching made me feel a little bit okay and learned few lessons from it. Like make peace with neighbors and/or people. It made me want to watch it again. Because now, my pain is really serious, it can kill me. My mind can’t absorb any good things, any blessings and any lessons from God and from the people that he uses.
Needing and Wanting ACCOMPLISHMENT/
for my mother
Received unexpected person who asked or surveyed about products, I was supposed to reject or cut but I faced her and gave her chance. That’s it, she just gave me a sticker. I don’t know what for. Maybe her company will visit again and offer their products. Whatever, she made me feel good anyway. She didn’t bother me. May God bless her.
Grateful, calmed, confident for tomorrow.